Butterflies!Posted: May 15, 2007
Okay. We just made an appointment with an adoption agency to learn more about the process. My stomach is all flippity-floppity. I’ve been trying to read up on adoption, but there are so many what ifs.
What if we don’t qualify?
Can we face another disappointment?
What if a home study doesn’t go well? Why wouldn’t it?
What if the money doesn’t come through?
What if they reject us? I’m not good with rejection…
So many things. Ugh. We won’t know ANYTHING unless we step out there and learn more.
I’m nervous! This adoption agency’s information kind of came into our path like it was meant for us to look into it. Is this the direction God wants us to go? We want to be parents, and we have a lot of love to give a child. We have prayed for a family, yet have suffered the loss of two babies this past year. Might we be blessed if we follow this road? I’m so afraid of the unknown, yet ready to face it. I think we’re both afraid to get our hopes up again.
I pray that we might be blessed, and hope that it is God’s will for us to have a family.